Kill Me, Heal Me: A Goodbye?

Finally Kill clears up its central Mystery surrounding the Cha clan. And thankfully Ri-jin and Do-hyun are unrelated, other than sharing the same painful past. We spend a large part of ep17 on flashbacks, as we learn of each character’s involvement in the fire of 23 years ago. And Do-hyun’s first personality split — into Shin Se-gi — as he sets the basement on fire in order to “save” Ri-jin.


I’m speculating that the mysterious Mr X, whom we have never seen till now, may actually be Do-hyun’s real identity, Joon-young. (we know Na-na is the teddy bear, thus to have her/it not appear as human form is still explainable) Cos after the fire, Joon-young wakes up and starts calling himself “Do-hyun”, whom we now know as Ri-jin’s original identity. In his guilt, little Joon-young may have chosen to bury himself and assume the identity of the little girl who has been beaten up in his place, thereby absorbing some of the pain she has endured.


Another wonderful closure ep17 has given us is the character of Cha Joon-pyo, who until now is best known as The Abusive Daddy. I never expected Kill to give him such a sympathetic backstory, cos we hardly want to identify ourselves or empathise with a child abuser. However, I find myself kind of understanding Daddy Cha’s frustration, and why he takes it out on Ri-jin. Not that I agree with him beating up a defenceless child, but there is a sort twisted reason why he did that.


Do-hyun’s free-wheeling ahjusshi personality, Perry Park, is modelled after Joon-pyo, who totally hates being associated with a chaebol family, and dislikes the politics and the backstabbings that go on within the business circle. Thus, he chooses to run away and become a nobody. And it suits him. Freed of his fetters, Joon-pyo is a caring and happy-go-lucky father. Until he is forced to return to the Cha clan — and sees that his ex-wife, whom he loves (but who hates him), has returned with a daughter. A daughter of another man. It doesn’t help that Joon-pyo’s father, Chairman Cha, despises his son and thinks he has zero business acumen. Whereas, he dotes on a daughter-in-law whom he has “bought” into the family, and who is a star performer in the business world. So Chairman Cha gives Ri-jin (a “grand daughter” who has absolute zero blood relation to the Cha family), the empire which should have been Joon-young’s.


It is horrific that nobody steps forward to stop Joon-pyo, and instead mutely allows him to sink deeper into his own hell. Joon-pyo half-redeems himself during the fire; he runs back to save Ri-jin and slips into a long coma following that. I kinda think that Joon-pyo himself doesn’t want to wake up — his real character is someone who is loving and caring, the recognition that he has turned into a monster may be deterring him from regaining consciousness.


Juz as we have closed up the Mystery, Do-hyun’s personalities seem to be making their last appearances in ep18. We have yet another string of all our favourite sub-characters popping up on screen, starting off with Se-gi first. He remains ever cheesey, but now that we (and Ri-jin) understand where his anger and frustration stem from, he no longer becomes an uncontrollable ticking time bomb.


Same for Perry Park, Yo-sub and Yo-na. Perry is no longer juz a weirdo fisherman-wannabe, but he is how young Do-hyun sees his dad — a free spirited man, who can laugh at his misfortunes…and a hobby for deepsea fishing. Yo-sub represents the sensitive but fragile Do-hyun, who basically seeks death cos of the pain he has been carrying around. And Yo-na, their antithesis. Juz as Yo-sub is introverted and directs pain inward, Yo-na is the extraverted Do-hyun, who loves Life and clings to it.


And how glad am I to see Yo-na given a chance to say “annyeong” (goodbye) to her “darling oppa”. After all, a girl has to have some closure after giving away her first kiss, right?

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